Einmal ist keinmal

I saw you among oceans of bright white lights
on a cold damp night , one October
my phosphoryl chloride storm
I remember how the night stank
of choking fumes of hydrogen
a (un)natural reaction
that strangely left me gasping for more
a rather niffy start
Don't you think for a lifetime's obsession ??
so the night marked the beginning of many more nights
of masked dreams ,and soul stirring calls
But that was yesterday ,
Today I am an obsolete "Idea"
a wasted cause
an epitome of falsehood
pretenses and more
Slain in the shadows
for new bold ones
But what does it matter
As you say it's of no significance
now staring into the oblivion
I still wait for you in the night
But all there is left behind
is the pungent smell of of a phosphoryl chloride storm

P.S : Einmal ist keinmal = Everything is insignificant; in an ultimate sense, nothing matters

Little dolls red, white and blue
I love you all I do! I do!
white I pop when I am blue
red on top to see me through
-through black, black tunnels of sleepless nights
I glide with life poppy eyed bright

Zig-zag, zig zag, bright pink woods
not so prissy now, little Red Riding hood
Kissed and necked the Big bad wolf
touched him, teased him but thats all she could
cos her white and red and blue dolls
vanished , they did into nowhere
now the wolf he huffed , the wolf he puffed
cryin "ride-me-hood and let me in "
to which she said as she ran way
"Not by the hair of my chinny chin chin
Not by the hair of my chinny chin chin"
she was back to being the lost odd girl
who only had her little dolls

I wait for you under boiling seas
Among crimson hair mermaids and rotting leaves
Keeping still my coral wings,
Sitting on floating purple clouds I wait for you…

I wait for you in the burning streets
Hiding between phoenix feathers in the pyre ring
Robed in golden threads of dragon flame
In my reincarnation fire I wait for you…

I wait for you between night and day
In the twilight zone, inside hells gate
On this eve of judgment day
Burning in Lucifer’s lair
I wait for you….

I wait for you in corners of insane dreams
Of giant dragon flies and talking dogs
Pulled into the vortex by bloody severed hands
You stare at me without seeing
And I still wait for you….

Don’t leave me not even for a day
I fear for my sanity without you beside me
Don’t send me away
I am your creature , your creation I live in your head , I cannot be destroyed
I live as long as u live
Perhaps even beyond the grave
Gnawing at your soul with my invisible hands

Alone, you wander Dark corners, twisted alleys
Searching for answers
That cannot be found
Always waiting, wanting, reaching for more
Not knowing I am a part of you
you struggle through this maze , a blind quest to understand
So let this be known through bad poetry and rhyme
There is only you and your will
Rip me, tear me, bind me, ride me
Plunge me , leave me to bleed and die
I am yours to do as you please!

Silent in love

Monochromatic cyber dreams
race through my mind
weaving disturbing visions
of you and me
Causing vague anxiety that stretches through the day
Unreal as it may seem
Hypnotised I am, with this web you weave
my reason dulled by the magic of your words
Only you can rescue me from my own destruction
Only your words can heal me when I am at my lowest
But if all I feel is true and real
Why am I silent in love ?